I decided to make the move to a campground to put Karen at ease. I know it must be hard to be in a house where you feel threatened. She is telling people that Harley bit her. I am pretty sure if Harley bit her, we would all know. I think Karen got the brunt of her claws that need to be trimmed.
Christmas wasn't as bad as I thought, but I really got mad at my own daughter on our way back to the camper. She once again was criticizing my driving. That child is constantly criticizing me for something! Here's hoping that she grows out of that stage! She is 20 for crying out loud!
The girls were going to Disney today, but my feeling is that they were really tired after having to get up really early in the morning that they changed their minds. It's okay by me. I am here at the campground for my first solo night. It's solo if you don't count Harley. I bought some salmon to cook and I am chilling in this beautiful weather.
My brother and I had an interesting conversation about my grieving. He wants to help me in some way. I don't think that anything can help with that. I do think it's too early to for me to be over the hard stuff. I know it will get easier. It got easier with Mom. It's different with Ben because he was the other parent. The other one who loved my children the same as me. I lost another cheerleader. He was my support system that support system is now gone. I figure that I have 3 more firsts, then I am done with that. New Year's Eve AKA Annie's 21st birthday, my birthday, then the first deathaversary. New term coined by me.
My friend Kathy just lost her dad this morning. I am going straight to Norfolk when I get home to be with her. I wish I was there now. Soon, soon. Trying to stay here, in the now.
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